Category: Everything

“If a man wishes to be sure of the road he treads on, he must close his eyes and walk in the dark” – “DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL” by St. John of the Cross, the most sublime of all spanish mystics.

In life, as in everything, we are walking through paths that we perceive as ladders that bring us toward a most important state of awareness. But we have tried so many times to get to this state after having opened a door and then realized by doing it other doors shut down (or get locked) at the same time. One door opens… Three doors close and so on and so on. It is our task to never loose patience, especially when the ultimate goal is to reach our own essence, our own being. We have done this, and we have wanted to understand better our inner self, and perhaps in some way or in all ways we touch the essence of the universe, grasp what it is, what it feels like, or what it makes us feel like.

Some people, through religion, try to find out a way of truth, but looking up, and not looking inside. Many doors close. And the path is mixed with more doubts and short not convincing answers. But why should we have to be convinced? Others, through daily work find a way to understand what reality is. The eternal relative reality, convex mirrors.

I am more mystical than religious and in this way I can consider “any path” valuable if this path is a way for me to meet other realms that I can’t meet through religion in itself. To me, religion was created by men. Mysticism comes from the soul. And now is when I speak about this power exchange between two people, the experience of fearing and confiding in someone at the same time; to feel pain and pleasure and it’s spiritual conclusions. To dare go further beyond, wanting to feel what it is like being an angel, and what it is like being evil. What it is like wanting to be a god, what it is like wanting to be a vassal; what it is like feeling free and slave. To feel free, happy, aware, big, deep, alive… In every one of our experiences.

I have gone through darkness, and it’s then when I have found my own light. If we walk in light, how can we perceive our own? And how can we realize what kind of light it is, how intense it is, how much balance is there between our light and our obscurity? When I walk in darkness a little light becomes a path, a bright tunnel, that I would not be able to see if I was walking in light all around me. My inner light is what I must see to understand the outermost light. And I have to say that the more I am aware and accomplished with what I find in my nature (exploring, finding, and accepting), is when the more doors open, one by one, each one leads to another. And they never, never close.

I don’t understand the logic of stopping to blog!! I really do not! I can consider the death of blog due to techinal reason. But suicides, i dont really understand, why?!

I don’t even want to get any deeper in that for analysation. Cause ot makes me feel bad at times. Just like through Emails, and Through IMs, I’ve also formed bonds through blogs. And I hate to see one die cause of one or other reason, either a peaceful one, or a frustrating one. Like i’ve lost The woman , Rhea and one of my very favorites The Neurotic one.

Of course, there have been blogs which came back alive after reaching the very edge of deceasing, giving threats that they might just Harakiri sooner than later. Such as The Anonymous Witness and Reshma Sanyal . And the thought of not being able to read them next week, sometimes makes me feel very melancholic.

Nonetheless, there are cases which provides me with the optimism, like of Nitz, Even apart from the long silence from the blog, i still have hope that it will strech itself from the dark sleep of coma and come back to the life. Of course, Aekta has been the one example of that as well.

After all, it leaves me with the feeling, that in the end, this is life.
Death happens. out of nowhere, yet there!
Cause, even the brightest shining sun, still must set!

Ektz. [ No hard feelings ]

ps. I’ve not yet considered stopping to blog, have you?

[ The conversation begins out of no where, and lands up where A_C ends up saying that male domination of the society is a good thing!!!]

A_C: that’s, in one-way good too….

Me: why do you think that?

A_C: for social balance Ekta… generally a high-earning gal will marry high-earning male… that way richer will become richer….

Me : its just merely a term. It’s not likely these days

A_C : nope….successful female will marry only successful male… its rule that husband should earn more or at least not very less than wife…. there’s always some imbalance in family if wife earns higher or is more successful…

Me : 🙂 u are a typical indian male

A_C : i am just stating the social situation… i would love to see woman doing good…. but it isnt very good for society….

Me : its people like you, who are stubbornly thinking the same thing, that’s why there is no change in situation

A_C : ha ha…..

Me : the rule of evolution is that, one who is fittest would survive, whether male or female 🙂

A_C : let us consider we have a company with 4 people….

Me : 🙂 okay

A_C : company means firm….firm has 2 women and 2 men…. the two employed women will chose only the 2 employed for marriage…. this leaves 2 unemployed ppl who will marry…. ?! So basically its situation of rich getting richer… and poor getting poorer…

Me : now now.. why are you assuming in part of females
Me : let them do what they want to. 😀 I mean if I am the richer one, I might marry a poor guy who would take care of my house. to reverse the situation. And there are females out there who would think like me

A_C : yes…thats a good solution… but not possible biologically…

Me : why not

A_C : men have testosterone which doesn’t permit passive work….

Me : why do you define home making a passive work. its the most active work . men at jobs would work for only 12 hours max. The home making is a 24- 7
Me : 🙂 you got my point?

A_C : ok….yaar… agreed….
A_C : males are yet to get broad-minded….

Me : 🙂 glad to have proven my point:)
Me : yes they are

A_C : ha ha…ok… so whats the conclusion??

Me : no conclusions. Situation remains the same still 🙂